My turn to EMO le la!! lol.. let me recall my meaningful days spend last wk.. (thurs till now). Thurs was my 2nd time exercising for napfa retake test. Meet up erik, prac at NP sport complex. I was fast weaken.. beri do much exercise.. n none running.. i feel like vomiting.. i bet i eat n drink too much b4 i exercise.. BUT this is no execuse.. i am simply WEAK!!

I HATE MYSELF BEING SO WEAK... but y mus i pass for band.. y alw band.. after tt meet up er and wil.. mahjonging.. i was somehow insulted by erik in the car about being so weak.. i am very angry.. but i jus simply upset.. i have no appetite at all.. feel like vomiting oso... went to IMM with them for dinner.. but i jus ate hot cheng teng.. go Band world.. rot again lor...

Den play mahjong at wil house... i keep throwing tiles let wilson game.. somemore is 5tiles lor.. i felt v stupid.. brain not thinking... sad of cos.. but den... in the end i only lost $4.. whereas er n erik lost more.. den they v bu shuang la.. i noe my fault la.. i lose $$ i oso nv anything ma... den still say play game ma.. y mus give the look.. haix.. sometime really donno y i mus play mahjong.. haix.. emo..

Slept at 3plus.. wake up 6plus.. work at jtc for one day... cos one staff MC.. den nth much happens.. Damn boring.. rot lor.. meet qiuhui for lunch.. sec sch frenx.. at nite meet xl meiyi wil erik hwee ling dinner.. ate fish bee hoon.. after 1hr HUNGRY liao!! Band was super crowded tt time lor.. alot rare faces turned up.. but we had sectional.. cos er was not ard.. MOsaici again lor.. supper at mac.. ok la.. nth much lor..

Slept at 2plus... watch fear factor.. lol.. den late for appointment with cm n brend on sat for SAF rehearsal.. sorry.. the band was super LOUD.. i played 1piece only.. den rot for like 3hrs.. lucky got joel who came late.. at least not tt sianx.. tok to Mr Chua abt band stuffs.. den the piece was like so hard.. tonguing mus be so fast.. den my score got missing rest n notes. haix..

Lack of sleep ... den went k box with cl.. at least it was fun... but i was not on form... lucky cl sang v well.. i listen le alw feel v relax n emo lor.. lol... really... den saw her bro.. scold her.. cos she alone with me ma.. don worry la.. cl is jus one of my good frenx.. lol.. den seafood dinner at my house downstair.. pre-celebrate for mother day.. bro treat.. nice food.. but i was not happy.. cos bro make the decision of the food.. don wan let me see menu oso.. not happy.. maybe lack of sleep..

Sunday wake up 1plus.. feel so shiok.. v tired oso.. sleep too much.. den oso muscle not tt aching anymore after the exercise.. weak rite.. den decided not going MA band today.. cos maybe not performing for the concert oso.. and need to find present for my MAMA.. hehe.. late for 30mins for cl meeting.. paiseh.. v sorry... walk walk.. den went home.. i bought a white handbag for my mama.. she love it.. Heng.. i love her expression when i give her things.. lol... she will say xie xie..

Wish lists for this 2 wks:
- Able to pay my debts to nuraziah n cl..
- More $$
- Pass Napfa
- Perform for SQS n MA..

Hope all my efforts in watever i do is right.. n not wasted.. =(